Dark Blue

by Mr. Bergstrom

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about

I wrote these songs between March of 2014 and June of 2016. I don't really know what genre any of this is, and a lot of the songs sound very different from each other, but I think they go together nicely.

There are traces of a lot of different artists in these songs. The most important ones are Mitski, Adventures, Waxahatchee, The Story So Far, Beach House, Cult Fluorescent, and Fat Creeps/Gracie Jackson.

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released August 6, 2016

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Mr. Bergstrom Los Angeles, California

If this music moves you at all, please email me and say hi. It means the world to me when my tunes affect someone.

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Track Name: With Anchors
Soldier
In a quiet war
That I can never win.

Shouldered
The burden
Never giving in.

I don't need anyone
To baptize my words.
I spoke clearly for five years
As if no one heard.

But the words held weight,
From them she built an anchor.
Set it down near mine
And now I need to thank her
Because

I'm
Finally
Not alone
Anymore.

Diamonds on a rope
Will safely keep us both
Wherever we need to be
From drifting out to sea.
And no matter where I go or how far,
Ships with anchors can always figure out where they are.
And I'll leave the radio on.
I'll still be there when I'm gone,
Because

I'm
Finally
Not alone
Anymore.
Track Name: Because You Do
Sixteen months is a long time
And I don't know where we'll be.
No matter what happens before then,
Every step you'll be with me.

And I know I'm always safe.
On your ankle, it's the same.
Even if no one loves me where I go,
That won't make me change
Because you do.

3K is a long way.
Don't wanna go there on my own.
Whether you fly with me or fly elsewhere,
I know I'll never be alone.

I know I'll have to go someday
And even if your mind has changed,
You are all the best things in my heart
And that will always be the case
Because you're you.

Angels around but my feet will be on the ground.
This anchor that saved me, this X that you gave me.
I'm confident now, because you taught me how
Knowing you is what makes me
Knowing you is what makes me me.

Every
Step of the way
I am with you
You are with me.
You are
Never alone.
The same
Moon in the sky
Mark at our feet.
We share a brain
And our hearts beat
The same tone.

Every
Step of the way
I am with you
You are with me.
You are
Never alone.

We are
Never alone.
Track Name: Pilgrim
Flower from a stranger's garden in Allston.
Hope it dried nicely in your back pocket.

I hope you're missing home at least one night.
I hope you played the songs at least one time.

I've become dislodged in time.
Half my heart is in Shanghai.
I've become dislodged in time.
I never wanna say goodbye,
Just goodnight.
Track Name: Still Ponds
Strongest I've ever been
It's all from watching her.
Third stories and psych wards with no doors,
The only way I could have learned.

Bend but never break, she taught me,
Confront things as they are.
She showed me not to be scared of how I feel
And follow the best things in my heart.

Everything I love about myself,
Nothing I hate about the world.
A million things I'm not I want to be.
A lifetime left to learn.

Thought her cause was lost at 15,
Fucked like her hometown.
I don't thank God, I thank her dad
For bringing her to solid ground.

Drug haze and heart break and self-hate.
Best she's ever been.
Long talks at still ponds near my house
Best times I have spent
Best time I've ever spent.

Everything I love about myself,
Nothing I hate about the world.
A million things I'm not I want to be.
A lifetime left to learn.

I never want to leave.
I never want to leave.
Two weeks feel like a year.
I'll owe her till I'm dead.
I'll owe her till I'm dead.
I never want to leave.

I don't want to meet the person I'd be if we'd never met.
Different, lost, and worse.
The best thing I've done in my life is be her friend
And my best luck has always been her.
It's always been her.
Track Name: Growing Pains
I've never
Loved anybody more
Than myself
And that's ok.
I didn't
Know I could care so much
For anyone else.
My heart is changed.

Luck so good it feels like fate.
Loved so much it changed my brain.

I am not what I was six months ago.
These growing pains are good for me,
Good for me.
You are not what you were six months ago.
Thrilled to see what I could be, you could be,
We could be.

Evolution
Wouldn't have worked right
If you weren't there
You know my all
Becoming
Who I should be
And I'm not so scared
Of tomorrow.

Luck so good it feels like fate.
Loved so much changed my brain.

I'm reminded
Of something my dad said
"I feel lost when your mom is gone."
I don't work right
My gears don't turn right
And there's a dull ache in my heart.

You're my armor and my rock.
When you're with me I am strong.
You have turned me into me.
I love the two of us completely.
If this was my last day to live,
I'd want to spend it with you like I did.
You're my mirror and my heart.
Better together than apart.

I am not what I was six months ago.
These growing pains are good for me,
Good for me.
You are not what you were six months ago.
Thrilled to see what I could be, you could be,
We could be.

I was wrong.
I won't go
There alone.
I can not and I won't.
I take it all back
I won't go.
It's not home
When you're gone.
Track Name: Dark Blue
From now on, when I'm scared,
When I'm scared
I'll close my eyes and see dark blue in Silverlake,
Back in time to me and you in Silverlake,
Watch me smile so hard I cried in Silverlake,
While Sinatra played.

I didn't wanna sleep,
Kept writing not sleep.
I didn't wanna sleep.

I thought that if I sleep,
I'll wake up and we'll leave,
And I didn't want to leave
I didn't want to leave.

From now on, when I'm scared,
I'll remember the first time either of us saw the sun set.
Close my eyes and see you smile in your new dress.
Hear us laugh under dark blue skies in Venice,
Miss Elizabeth.

I didn't wanna sleep,
Kept writing not sleep.
I didn't wanna sleep.

I thought if I sleep,
I'll wake up and we'll leave.
And I didn't want to leave
I didn't want to leave.
Track Name: Home
Home
I'm home
For the first time
In a while.

Home is where the heart is.
In our kitchen and our closets.
Laughing while we're doing dishes.
On the wall, where your art is.

Every time I leave,
I take the bird with me.
Nestled in my watch pocket,
I am brought home safely.

This is where I want to be,
Today and next week,
I don't need sheep and fences,
To sleep I count my blessings.

Home
I'm home
For the first time
In a while.
Track Name: The Light
I was crazy to think
That I'd be the only one writing for you for long.
Someone stood in the light I was too scared to ask how I looked in,
Now I guess I have to move on.

But I don't want to move on.
I don't want to be where you're not.
I don't care if it has everything else that I want.

I took time to
Figure out where I stood.
Meanwhile I tried
Living the best I could.
But I am sick of the thrill,
And I am tired of the chase,
And every time I've gone out
And every person I've met
Just reminds me that I had no choice but to bet
And how I'm burdened and blessed
By the standards that you set.

Don't know if I can move on.
If I can be where you're not.
I don't care if it has everything else that I want.

You know how I get on planes,
But as I flew back from the peach tree state,
I held your pin and looked at your face,
Pictures of us ear to ear in LA.
And as I left the runway,
I was in Silverlake
With a smile on my face,
You slowed my heartrate,
Kept my fingers unclenched.
I was back in those moments
Like I never left.

I found a way to conquer all my fears
Except for one.

I hope one day
You look at me
In your light
And see how I glow.
Track Name: Always and Forever
No matter how long it's been,
You can always bring me home.
I meant what I said,
You'll never be alone.

Every time I say goodnight
I sit in bed and try hard not to cry.
I have a head start missing you,
It'll never stop until you're there or until I die.

Always and forever,
Home is with you.
It's hard to call it better
If you're not there too.

No matter how hard it gets,
No matter the soil or the coast.
Run our thumbs over our X
Always our smoothest stone.

Always and forever,
Home is with you.
It's hard to call it better
If you're not there too.

A thousand days
Can bring so much change.
In the back of my mind,
I'll be waiting.
I'll be okay
But I'll count the days
Endlessly
Till another change.

I hope you know that I'm scared
I'm not happy or ready
But I'll never be
So I have to leave

A thousand days
Can bring so much change.
In the back of my mind,
I'll be waiting.
I'll be okay
But I'll count the days
Endlessly
Till another change.
Track Name: Mansion
Every night we're back together.
Before I sleep I don't feel well.
Walk by palm trees to the theater.
I don't know what to do with myself.

I'm sorry that I had to leave.
These words don't come out easily.
Saying it's like pulling teeth.
I'm sorry that I had to leave.

Perfect sky above the mansion.
How you would love this weather.
Drag my feet along in heaven.
I don't want to feel better.
My favorite view is out on Franklin,
It always reminds me of you.
New Year's here and I've been thinking,
I don't know if I can fake it through.

I'm sorry that I had to leave.
These words don't come out easily.
Saying it's like pulling teeth.
I'm sorry that I had to leave.

I'm missing half my blood.
I am weak.
Even though I don't act it,
I am weak.

I'm missing half my blood,
And no matter how tough
I am or hard I try,
Nothing's ever enough.
Track Name: It Stays The Same
I hate my life in my favorite city.
I am so tired
And I want to leave.

I love the air, and the sky's so pretty.
But I'm absent
What makes me me;

You.
You.
I don't want to do this alone.
Without you, it's not home.

Air to my lungs,
Color to my eyes,
Ground to my feet.
First thing when I wake up,
Last thing before I sleep,
While I dream.

It stays the same,
It doesn't change,
It stays the same.

I've been in so much pain
Without you.
Track Name: You Are My Sunshine
The other night, dear, as I lay sleeping,
I dreamt I held you in my arms.
When I awoke, dear, I was mistaken,
So I bowed my head and cried.

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine,
You make my happy when skies are gray.
You'll never know dear, how much I love you,
Please don't take my sunshine away.

I haven't always felt like I do now,
It happened slowly, snuck up on me.
But when I realized, my heart was changed for good,
For it no longer belonged to me.

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine,
You make my happy when skies are gray.
You'll never know dear, how much I love you,
Please don't take my sunshine away.